ok...my mom was out of town for the nightlast night and i wanted to have fun so badly but what did i tell you...i talked to him for hours and i was sooo happy about that..i still havent had a boyfriend in 10 months and it really sux. my birthday is in 7 days and i just dnt know what to do. i want friends, i want a boyfriend, and i want to have fun. no, what i realy want, is to smile and mean it. so im just sitting here, writing, which i LOVE to do, i have to go to work at 5 and i wanna just go to my room and cuddle with my giant teddy bear but i cant do that because i want to write and cuddling is a lot better with someone tha can cuddle back. now i feel like SHIT...im gonna go...bye..