today was the worst day in the world! First I got a truancy fine at school ($100) because they thought I was skipping class! then I tried to explain but noooo they didn't wanna listen, and I have to go to fucking saturday school from 8am-2pm on fucking homecoming day. THEN I found out my friend, Jose, died last week. He got shot in the heart 2 times by some guys in a van. I didn't get to go to his funeral or nuttin because I didn't find out until today. Anyway, after the whole truancy thing, I didn't think my day could get worse but then I did cuz of the whole Jose thing. Anyway, today was the worst day ever...i hate feeling like this and not being able to do anything about it, cuz as much as I try to not think about it, I still do. I can't wait until I talk to Matthew he'll make me feel better. The only thing getting me through the day...honestly...was his gum box! I know that sounds gay, but it smelled like cinammon and thats the gum he was chewing on saturday, and thats what got me through the day, I miss him already!