Wow...it's been a looooong time since i've written in here! Ok well it's April and I have about 23 days until I graduate (school days that is). I'm really excited to finally get out of high school and leave all that lil kid drama that's been going on. Ok, well I got a job! I started working at Blockbuster with my friend, Brittany. It's a good job, it's not hard at all and it's fun too. My friend, Felipe, recently got hired there too...so it's cool b/c I know my friends! Plus, the people that work there are really nice too. Well I was dating this guy named, Mario, he was really nice and sweet and I really liked him, shit I still like him. BUT...he had a baby. That didn't really bother me at first at all, like I was cool with it and everything and I told him that I'd love to meet him one day and get to know his lil boy. Anyway, we started going out on a Monday nite and that Sunday he was going to pick up his son and spend the day with him, and he asked me to come along. Honestly, I was going to because I really wanted to get to know him, but then it kinda hit me that I don't think I'm like "mature" enough to date someone with a baby, I mean i'm mature of course, but I don't want to feel like I have a baby at 17, you know? He said that he wouldn't get in our way and that he didn't expect me take care of the baby, but first of all I expected him to put his baby and his baby's momma before me...always, and second although he wasn't mine and he says he didn't expect me to take care of him, the responsibility came the very moment that me and Mario got together. I would hate to be someone who just gets in between even though he says I wouldnt, but c'mon now....there is always Baby Momma drama, no matter what goes on. Check this...she even gave him a shoutout on the radio when me and him were together saying..."Oh this is to my ex Mario, I just wanna let you know that I still love you and that'll never change...oh ya and GOOD LUCK with your LITTLE GIRL, MARI!" She called me a little girl!!!!! I mean c'mon now, i'm 17 and she's 18...and she's only about 4 months older than me b/c she barely turned 18 in March and I turn 18 in July! That made me sooo mad. Anyway, he took care of that by talking to her and she apoligized but I figured if it happened once it'll happen again, ya know? But anyway, I decided to tell Mario that I wasn't ready b/c I didn't think I could handle everything and I didn't want to end up hurting him or anyone in the end. So I told him if it was ok if we were just "dating" for now and then maybe later one once I get more comfortable w/ the whole situation then we can get together. He wask upset kinda but he said he understood. So right now we're talking and dating. But it's hard to see eachother b/c he work everyday 8-5pm except Tuesdays and Sundays, and Tuesdays I have school and Sundays he spends it w/ his baby. I mean we go out sometimes Friday and Saturday nites after I get off of work but not all the time b/c we're both tired. Anyway, my mom likes him, but she also thinks I should give it time. I dunno, WHAT DO YOU THINK? Oh ya, I met Matthew's ex girlfriend, Marie. She's the one he dated after me. She's real cool....turn out that he cheated on her. What a bitch, me and her are cool though we hang out and she stays at my house a lot. We're going to Six Flags this sunday...and he works up there, so I wonder what he's gonna think when he sees me and her up there at the same time! HAHA! I can't wait!!!!! PROM!!!!!!! Is coming up, its April 24! Next Saturday!!!!!! I'm so excited I got my dress last week, it's really pretty...it's pink! Oh ya, and i'm going with this guy...Frankie from W.T. White HS. He's cool, we're cool friends. After prom though Mario is gonna pick me up and he's gonna go to the after party with me, but if he can't go then this other guy, Joel, is gonna go get me. I dunno but I can't wait it's gonna be fun!! There are like 20 of us going to dinner together, and then everyone is going to the after party and some people from WTWHITE are going too, it's gonna be fun! Well, until next time....