ok...it's been about 3 weeks now, since me and Matthew broke up. I thought I was fine without him, but it wasn't until Friday that I realized how much I miss him. I went on a date w/ this guy, Rey. He was really sweet and really nice. But I dunno, being with him made me realize that I do want a boyfriend, but the only boyfriend I want is Matthew. I'm not sure exactly why I feel this way, maybe just cuz Matthew happened so quick then it was over real quick too. Our first date was at the movies, and when I was there on Friday, I couldn't kiss Rey in the theatre b/c I didn't feel right, it's almost like the movies was "our place" (me and matthew's). I dunno why i'm having these feelings, I didn't let myself cry before or let my feelings out, until now...I think it's time to cry and talk to my friends about it, b/c that's the only way that I will get over him. I feel as if I can't have him...then I don't want anyone else, and I don't wanna feel like that b/c I don't want him or thinking about him to stop me from being happy or from meeting other people. But honestly, if he were to call me and just be like I want you back, I wouldn't even hesitate to say yes. That's a bad thing, b/c I shouldn't think about him anymore, but I can't help it. And when we talk, it hurts even more. Well...like i've said before, i'll get over it eventually, I just need time.