Dear *****, I wish you loved me. You're so totally different to me, and yet I want you to love me so much that you'd conform to what I want. You'd want me to do things that I don't want to do for a long time yet, I know that, and yet I still want you so badly. I want you to never want to cheat again. I want you to still confide in me. I want you to love me for who I am and the rules I go by. I want you to accept God like I do and see that actually you want to live life as a Christian. But this is just wishful thinking. I will just admire you from afar. Hoping. xxx