Dear you, I want you to know I love you. Now that I have that out of the way, let me explain. You touched my life in ways no one has ever done before. I was raised in a mentally abusive home, so I grew up with a totally independent mind. I never let anyone into my life, and the few times I was brave enough to do so, I got hurt. Badly. The day I met you is a day I will forever remember. I saw your shoes before I saw anything else. Black and blue Chuck Taylors. I looked up to your face. and was instantly blown out of the preverbial water. Your long, shaggy, skater-punk dark brown hair instantly grabbed my attention. Your eyes. Light blue. The same color as the sky. It kills me, because everytime I look at the sky, I remember your eyes. I've yet to find eyes like yours. Piercing, yet gentle. Loving, yet tormented. When I finished taking in your face, I realized you were staring right back at me. This next moment is a moment that I will remember for the rest of my life. The moment I first saw you smile. Your gorgeous blue eyes gazed into mine, and you smiled. I instantly knew that I wanted you. I wanted to talk to you, to be with you, to kiss you, to love you. I can still see that smile. It's forever painted in my memory. Time, that week, flew by. Everything after that first moment until Wednesday night was a blur. Hanging out every moment we possibly could. Texting at night, even though you were a few rooms over. I will always cherish the memories of us. Walking around the track in the moonlight. Lying on the starting line, looking at the stars, and identifying stars and planets. You always were kind of a nerd. From the first time we kissed I knew. I knew I loved you. More than any other. Your lips were soft and warm, a comfort in the cold Wisconsin night air. I can't even bring myself to go on. Remembering all of this hurts so much, because I know we'll never be together again. You're too far away. I'm too distant. I miss you. 180 miles. 3 hours. "And now the state line felt like the Berlin wall" I miss you. I love you. I need you. I wish you understood. I wish you knew. I wish I was [your] one. [www.sitdiary.net/vix3n]