This is my first time writing on this and I think it is a fantastic idea. I'm a senior in high school and am planning on going to a certain college. My girlfriend is planning on a different one. This worries me a lot of the time. I tell myself we can make it but i've told myself that before with other lovers. I'm wondering if i'm just fooling myself. I've turned back to smoking so i can forget about the pain for a little while. It helps me relax. i just hope my heart stays in one piece this time. it has taken it over two years to be whole again, and i don't know if i can stand to have it obliterated into the pieces i know so well.