Well let's see, my brother is going off to college in 2-3 weeks. Leaving me all alone...(except the fact that I have to babysit my little brother and sisters for the rest of the summer) Letting the thought sink in, it hit me, and it hit me hard. I regret all the fighting we have done, I regret all the mean things that I said. I've known him for 4 years now. We really don't have a "brother-sister" relationship. Those you develop overtime from young. I'm gonna miss him alot. If there is one thing I hope he gets is that I really love him. Despite what I say...the truth is that I love him with all my heart. It's funny, when I see him with his girlfriend, I get mad. I get so mad that in order to keep my emotions under contol I have to use all my will. By time I'm through, I end up with a major headache, of course everyone else thinks I just have a big attitude.^^; Maybe I just want his attention, his big brotherly love...maybe I'm asking too much from him, maybe he wants nothing to do with me. I wouldn't really be surprised if he stopped talking to me...it's not like we really talked at all..we were mostly fighting. I'm so pathetic...really I am...I HATE HIM SOOO MUCH RIGHT NOW! Why?.....I don't know..I suck at being a little sister..I'm pathetic School is over...I really miss my friends. I miss some of my classes too. They didn't let me linger in my sadness...They gave me something else to think about instead of me sitting here crying like the big baby I am. Well I'ma gonna go now, it isn't good for my health to be linghering on like this...I need to go occupy my mind with something else. ~Laterz Ren ^^