After all the dust settles, there are only ashes remaining. The sun comes out from hiding and the gentle breeze blows again. The ashes rise into a spiral and a new being takes form. Like a pheonix reborn, I too am born again. Is that not the meaning of my name, born again? Yes Renee, you are like the pheonix, from the ashes you shall rise and start over. The fight is over and you have to begin anew. If he doesn't want to have a relationship with you after all the years lost that's all on him. It is his lost. You did fine before him and you'll do fine now. The pain and turmoil you have caused is over now and yet in lingers on in my mind. An ache can be felt in the darkest crevest of my heart. I must ignore it. Those events, those feelings are to be left behind for good reason. It would drive me to madness. As if one foot isn't already hanging off the edge. Forgive me, as I forgave you. You told me that I left you a worse person, I apologize, it was never my intention daddy and for that I will make it up to you by making my dreams come true. You have lost your hold on me, no longer shall I let you play on my emotions. Goodbye if that's the way it must be. I'm glad I met you, now I know what I want for me. I am what I'm meant to be. Renee Angelina Louisor-Bennett. The Scorpio, The Rabbit, The Pheonix, The Born-Again Heavenly Messenger, The Daughter, The Sister, The Friend, The Child, The Woman.