Feeling a little weird..maybe it the weather. I keep sneezing. And I feel dizzy. My head is ready to fall off...it's so heavy. I don't know if I'm ready for a relationship. I don't want to get hurt. I don't want to be left alone, thrown to the side one day and forgotten. We've been together 1 month, 1 week, 1 day, 1 hour,2 minutes, and 20 seconds. I like him, I really do...A little weirder I think I may love him but I don't want to go there. I don't want to put myself on the line and end up broken. Why must I do this; always quetioning things? That's how I ruin it. With my insecurity. So many girls are after him. Shouldn't I feel confident that he chose me over them? It's not enough. When it comes to my heart I have to look at all possibilities. So that it won't be as bad when shit hits the fan. Who am I kidding, it'll still hurt like hell. Wow..I really do love him, I've already been through so much for him. We've been through so much in such a short time. Other girls would have walked away and yet I still stay. Am I stupid? His mom doesn't want us to be together...she'd rather he be with one of his own race. Maybe I'm not pretty enough; maybe I'm not what he needs. There I go again...insecurity eating away at me. I want him to wash them away and tell me how he truly feels about me. Is that too much to ask. I just want to be free of them, free of my fears.