8 . 31 pm Confused about how, as well... Okay. Long story for you. And yes, I am crying. So I got home from Joe'E's house, and Karlee came over, and then Jade came over. And as usual, they outvoted me and we had to play Mouse Trap. They kept being stupid and I let them, while still trying to keep to the rules, and whenever I said something they just sort of ignored it and started laughing at each other again. So I went quiet, knowing I could never say anything right, and they were like "OH ICE CREAM ICE CREAM" and I couldn't really stop them because they would get mad at me, saying I was being weird and so I told them to do whatever they wanted, and of course they did. So we finished the game and I started to blow bubbles but they just sat there, and then I danced for a while, trying to ignore them pretending to whisper about me. So I sat down and played music on my phone, and they didn't really try full out to include me so I didn't try full out to include myself. Eventually Karlee took my bubbles (without asking, as usual. I know it's just bubbles, but its EVERYTHING. She just...does stuff without asking) and blew them, and then she was blowing them on the tramp, and whacking around the wand, and so they told me to get on the tramp and I sat there, listening to them play a game, and then I sort of included myself again, playing with them, and then they wanted to order pizza to the kids up the street. So we did, and then I said "Last one off the tramp has to put the phone book away," and when it was Karlee, she got all pissed and said, "Why is it always me? I'm the one that always gets blamed," and I said, "You were the one that called," and she said, "No I wasn't!" It was true though, she had. So then she went off ranting about how I excluded her and was always saying, "Jade jade jade," as if she had read my mind and beat me to the punch. She was saying, "It's because you like her more than me." And I just sat there, wishing I could scream out my heart, but I held my tongue. "I try to hang out with you," she went on, "but you dont seem to want to." So really, she was turning it all around on me, after I had been the third wheel and held in everything I wanted to say to them. I had been the one that went off on my own. I had been the one that was excluded. I was the third wheel. And still she found a way to make me the bad guy. So I went in to put the phone book away, saying, "Well I'm obviously the bad guy here so I'll go put it away." And she got pissed, stormed off, and started off home. Jade ran inside to get her shoes and said, "I'LL MAKE HER STAY." And ran off after her. They both went home. Completely ditching me. And Jade is taking this retarded vow of silence. I think I should join her in that, since I can never be right. Not for my dad, not for my friends, not for anyone. I think I'm going to. At least against those two. I mean, Jade is having this barbeque and she invited Karlee before she invited me. And she didn't even invite me. Karlee did. Thoughtful, huh? Anyway, I'm getting choked up again, so...I should do something to take my mind off of it. Bye. sharpie.