today i went to the phycologist. yeah, good times...lol. she made me do this hand thing while thinking about this thing that makes me really mad. it was wierd, but it worked, so i guess that's all that matters. i don't know what is up with me lately. i've been really pissed off for no reason, just really irritable. i don't know how i feel or what i'm thinking. i'm really kinda lost in myself, and it's really rather scary. i'm thinking that's not a good thing that i scare myself...whatever. as i'm flying into pieces. i can't quite think this through. what am i supposed to think about you and how you've always treated me? is this what a friend should be? someone to wiegh you down, let you fall to the ground, without ever turning around to see how you were doing. i can't take this. is the world crashing down on me? or am i simply going crazy? i guess you won't be here for me. that's ok, i don't need you. i know i can get myself through. throught this all, it's your last call, will you be there when i need you? if not, there's nothing i can do, to save what small remains are left of a friendship that didn't quite pass the test.