"atleast at home, half the girls are ugly." -aymi that's what aymi said today at dinner, we were talking about how we dont like it here and part of the reason was because all the girls are gorgeous... it was funny. "find a creative outlet and bury yourself in it." that could be some of the best advice i've gotten in a long time. i want to change something in my life. i'm tired, bored, blah, bland, and i'm tired of feeling like shit. it's really time to find myself. i need to do some serious thinking about my life. fuck. why are people so fucking stupid sometimes. why do they have to make other people look bad and do things to them, just for the fun of it?! they never stopped to think why she was telling them to stop. they didn't care that she was telling them to stop. i'm on the verge of tears for no apparent reason... i feel like crying and i don't know why. "But that old familiar fear is tearing at my words What am I so afraid of?"