now i find myself in a certain place of doubt. a doubt that i am quite familiar with. it never leaves and won't get out. it shows itself in many ways. it's the constant nagging in my stomach, and what brings down my happy days. i'm up at night, being tortured by it's screams. wishing, hoping, praying i could just fall asleep. but i am like a deer in it's headlight's beams, and i freeze, for it's gripping hold to keep. i try to get away, still hoping that i can. but it rips and pulls and tugs at me with it's long arm and lengthy hand. it makes me doubt myself, even though i'm right. it creeps into my mind, slowly, but surely every night. soon this doubt will leave me and i'll be left alone to wonder. did i make the right choice? i have my whole life to ponder.