25 days til' christmas ... i did something bad to one of my friends . but i felt bad for the guy she was playing . she hates me now . she also told everyone my secrets . i called matt . after 3 days of not speaking with him . someone told him i was with tj now . what a lie . i wish . went to church with holly . it was a moving experience . i cried . david called during it . holly also bought me a cool jesus shirt . im wearing it tomorrow . david called . we talked for a good half hour . he almost hit a car & ran out of gas . he seems like such a sweet guy . i really hope i get to do something with him friday . matt called while i was on the phone with david . he left a msg . it was a real sad msg . almost made me feel bad for him. dont hold this against me.. i already said im sorry