friday night i finally got to watch *the notebook* . i cried so much. thats how i want my love life to be. but it wont ever be so ..no need for me to cry over it . saturday night seen some old friends . went to a redneck party . crazy . frankie called & wanted me to spend the night with him. i couldnt . we are suppose to do something friday . today has been okay . boring day . did some unselfish things . im such a nice person . ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ You almost always pick the best times - to drop the worst lines - you almost made me cry again this time - another false alarm - red flashing lights - well this time I'm not going to watch myself die - I think I made it a game to play your game - and let myself cry - I buried myself alive on the inside - so I could shut you out - and let you go away for a long time… Everytime she sees him she [d i e s . i n s i d e] Everything she feels for him she is [F o R c E d . t O . H i D e] She knows he could never feel the [S a M e . W a Y] so she pretends she [D o E s N t . C a R e] hoping she can make it through the day , full of pain that no one can see & at night all she can do is think of what will never be When she finally falls asleep she dreams of him his beautiful smile and the way he makes her laugh This is the only time she is ever truly happy because in her dreams they`re not just friends he loves her back She wakes back up and knows she has to face reality he does not love her, the dream is just a cruel joke Played by the crushed heart he doesnt even know he broke.