.things havent been that great lately. i always want what i cant have. but isnt that how it always goes? but why do i want someone who treated me like shit? .this whole situation with tangi & mike is breaking my heart. even if im not showing it. i thought your best friend was suppose to know when your secretly falling apart inside. .matt telling me he loves me isnt helpin any in my life either. i dont understand how he can love me. but love is strange.