people are telling me im crazy... -i havent ate. -i have stopped crying for an hour.for 2 days. -i cant sleep at all..when i lay down i think about everything maybe this stupid diary bullshit will help me vent a little bit...i really hope it does..because all these people telling me im acting crazy...makes me really think im crazy.. i feel like im loseing a best friend..and the person that means the most to me....i love him so much...i cant lose him..or ill seriously have nothing....does he understand this...?... im not sure...but i wish he would believe me..im willing to give up EVERYTHING...and i mean everything just to be happy with him again... here i go fucking crying again..this is seriously killing me..i dont know what to think or feel..everything is coming to me at once and its insane.....once againg hes my best friend and the person i want to be with for the rest of my life..call me young and stupid and i will tell your gay ass to find true love like i have...and you see what you want... god i cant write anymore i cant fucking see....... i love you nick..and fuck what your stupid ass friends say...when their relationships are more fucked up than ours..