im just going to keep trying..im not going to give up that easy..why cant i just be happy?..but i want him to be happy with me..he means everything to me..i just want things go good..god he really means E V E R Y T H I N G to me..yeah i wish i could see him more often..i just want to be with him...to know hes mine..and that no one else can feel and have and feelings that are shared..hmm..things are getting a little saucy....but all in all i feel more for him than ever and i think that its going to grow..but i just want him to be mine..hm..hes my poopies duh niggers!..hopefully i get to hang out with him this weekend.... so yeah..tiffany had her baby and such...her name is nevaeh luna...thats so pretty...i havent seen the baby yet but hopefully ill get to go over there today after my dr appt..i was at the hospital with her..but her grandma was pissing me off..she was being anooying as hell..and she kept asking me what the contractons looked like on the monitor..pffy what a dick...haha..oh well... things at home are looking ok..i wish people would come over and spend the night::cough NICK cough::..lol...i think im done smokeing weed...its getting pretty boring..and there is no point..im just going to drink alot..and i mean ALOT...i cant say im not going to miss getting high..but getting high is so lame..and it makes you fat :).... so yeah i keep missing badn practice..im such a loser..i can never find a ride..plus im really lazy..and shy...and such.. jesus christ i miss nick..i seen hm sat but he didnt act like he wanted to hang out oh well....meh later players...