Everything's falling apart. I keep going totally crazy. Last night I cried myself to sleep, literally. This morning my mum and i had another fight and she hit me a few times, which she hasn't done in ages. I just can't deal with all this stress of assignments and exams and work and everything else, and my condition makes it all 3 times worse. I talked to my mum about starting drugs, sedatives, and she made a doctor's appointment. I do want to try them, just to relax for a little while, but I'm afraid that I'll never be the same and I'll become all addicted and shit. I feel like I'm pregnant. I've gained 2 kilos, but maybe I'm just paranoid. I feel sick all the time, but I hope that's just stress, it's making my period late.