I just realised that I'm nothing. For all my thinking that I'm better than those around me, I'm just really nothing. I feel lonely and pathetic. I pushed away possibly the only person I care about, the only person who could've helped right now. My friends are so much better than me, each in different ways and I only just realised that. It makes me feel awful because I'm nothing and yet I put them down so bad, treating them like they're nothing. I hate my family so much. I hate work. I hate most of the people I know in some way or another. But really, when it comes down to it, I hate myself. I can't be what I want. I can never be happy, no matter what I've got and it's my own fault because I push people away or put them below me. I'm so nothing.