I am such a no one. I am a stupid, selfish, pathetic, hypocritical no one. Fucking awful. Where the fuck am I headed? At least those ruining their lives know what they're doing. Why can't I make a fucking decision? Why can't I fucking just be sure. I don't even want to be happy, I just want to be sure. Screw it. Screw all of this, I'm going to temporarily go back to that immature way of making me feel remotely special. At least I'm deciding to do SOMETHING.