Fuck, I'm so hateful. I'm so depressed and theres only one person who can help me get out of it, but he seems to be freaking ignorant to this fact. All he has to do is talk to me, but he doesn't even want to do that. This thought, the thought that I actually had/have no one in this world who cares about me instigated a relapse. I'm at that apathatic stage. Motherfuckers. I hate them all. The one person I want to hate cant help me. What an idiot. I'm so tired... My eyes hurt because I've been crying, you moron. Do I have to explain fucking everything to you? Fuck. Males.