I cant be here anymore. My clock has ran its course in this one place, and now its time to move on. Its so scary though changing and going somewhere elese. From the inside out its time to depart. I wish i could just leave my body and drift to anthor one. Live a diffrent life then my own. It could be worse, but im restless in this skin. No one ever thinks about things when they are happening. Its the after math of actions that really get people. I dont belong here, but all my actions have lead me right to where i am. When i was a kid i had such a diffrent idea about what my future would hold. I never pictured myself being as i am. I dont even like the charector traits that i have anymore. Is there anything good left to me in my own eyes? I know life isnt supose to be a walk down a guided path, but im so sick of picking the bumpiest, destroyed trails. I want better for me. I want better for everyone elese around me. Screw that... I want the BEST. But, the best is never near. not for me, not for anyone i know. The best might as well be some far fetched fantasy. Only ini my dreams...