to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything all at once
i am one of those
melodramatic fools
neurotic to the bone
no doubt about it When I say breathless, I meant it literally. I'm suffering from hypertension. At 17. I'm not really sure, but the symptoms show. Funny, isn't it? I'm still pretty young and I'm thinking like a 40-year-old. It's like everytime I breathe a hand is crushing my windpipe. And chest pains occur, too. When I last measured my BP, it was about a 140/110. The way things are heading, a nervous breakdown might be possible. I was thinking of that last morning. But this little cheesemax seemed too good to pass up. And it made me so sadistically happy. Let me just put it simply, there are only 3 kinds of persons that I simply loathe in my life: the fakes, the swellheaded, and most especially...the users. I'm only a simple person with one simple social rule: Be nice to me and I'll be nice to you. Expect me to suddenly treat you like you're just thin air if you played with me. I really tried from the start to accept. And found out I really couldn't. And when I found this out, it seems like all I want to do is to completely erase you from my sight. I have to give you credit, though...you're acting was really impressive. Definitely up for a Golden Globe. It's just too bad that the person around you hangs on your every action, every breath, every word, everything that you do. So crazy about you and you play him like a toy. And then speculations stirred up within me. I didn't hold back any longer and then I took a wild guess. It was true all along. I'm warning you, one word from my mouth and it will be the end of your ranbows and sunshines. If I wasn't this sick, I would've beaten you to a pulp right now. Then I decided not to because standing you up would be like intimidating an ant. You're not worth fighting for because you're nothing but a worthless piece of scum. You think the whole world revolves around your big head but you don't even know you're just a fucking patsy. I swear you will get yours someday. You're messing with fire. Don't think that your completely huge stature will scare me. Taking only a couple of cheap shots will not make me cry. If you do hurt someone, though...I might just go blind and my 1st person will take over me: The 1st person is always my super darkest side.
I can't wait to see you
Now please tell me: am I really that ugly to bbe envied by you?
hypertension sonnds fun!
my friends name is cheska, i never thought id hear of another.
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