nothing more and nothing less
familiar things you say and do
seems so strange it's not like you Why, why, why is it that I'm always so fucking jinxed during emo month? It's like a curse that will never be broken. Things weren't the same anymore. I so fucking hate February. You have no idea how much. It's just like living with monkeys and misunderstanding each other. What pisses me off now is when people are having a problem with me. What pisses me off more is not telling it to me and then I end up hearing it from another person's mouth. It wasn't you I was trying to hit in the three persons that I hate. Trust me, I know a lot of idiots I'd want to kill. IT WASN'T YOU. Now, what I hated was you not telling me. You know how I like being stood up, and I know you don't like hurting me. But that's just the way life goes. The truth always hurts. But right now I'm just a woman possessed with absolute incurable rage. Maybe that's why I liked you in the first place. I couldn't stand you. I fall for guys that I can't stand. I know I'm becoming a bitch, but that's because I'm letting myself be a bitch. It just won't stop. I know I can get over this, but it's not that easy for my part to just control myself just like that. It always wouldn't be easy. It's a good thing that I still manage to calm myself down. Like I still see, you are still just too fucking hard to read. I have no idea if you're mad at me or what. You've been ignoring me for the past two days and it's driving me absolutely insane. It's like you're doing everything in your power to get off my way. And it's because of me not shutting up. If I hadn't tried to set things right, none of this shit would've happened. If I hadn't fallen for their enemy tactics, I wouldn't have said anything to you. And if I had admitted my feelings for you in the first place, you wouldn't be taken away from me and I wouldn't be this whole emotional wreck. For some reason, I'm so already aching to make up even though I couldn't come near to you anymore. But the way things are heading, it's like you're making it clear to me that you don't need me anymore. You already have her anyways. And I don't wanna serve as your little burden to your life. Well, fine then. If that's your plan, forget you. Two can play that game. ...... ...... ...... Oh, damn Jesus motherfucking Christ...I can't believe that I'm crying. Again. Hurt me once, hurt me twice...it felt like you hurt me a million times. I feel definitely worse than a coke problem.