[o.44]by darksecretlove
Fuuuuuuck. Well, I think I'm doing better. I actually took ALL the Social Studies notes that we were supposed to do on our own today. It wasn't that hard...I don't get why I never did it all. So...yea I better get an A on our next test! Okay...I think I'm starting to hate Mrs. Conway again. Only because she said my assignment that we had to do [about Jews] was elementry. But...yea I did it in like 2 min...so yea, I guess it was...maybe I shoudn't be mad at her for that, because I didn't really try on it..so yea, and she told me before we handed it in or whatever. So I re-wrote it, typed it all nice and shit, and hopefully this time she'll say 'Omg, Alex this is such a great paper, it's soo descriptive!' I thought it would be okay to do it just in like 2 min, because I did that with all my other assignments and I got A's on them...hmm...whatever. I'm improving in math. I asked the teacher if I was doing everything right, and she checked my paper, and everything was right...so yay! Soon my failing grade will be an A...hopefully....or atleast a C or above... ISeeYou054: what sn was greg on cause he imed me but i dont have it anymore ItsAllForYoux3: anovembersundown ISeeYou054: ahh ISeeYou054: how the fuck and i sopsed to remember that ItsAllForYoux3: lmfao ItsAllForYoux3: sopsed? I know...I'm so mean. I shouldn't make fun of her, because I'm the one failing maybe more than 2 of my classes, but god...it's so funny. My finger hurts, and the little convo thing is tomorrow where we are supposed to play infront of everyone...god, I don't want to. I don't want to wear that stupid blue shirt...and have to tuck it in...jesus...I complain too much... I still haven't talken to Tara. I think she's going to shut my out of her life, just like she did Nick. Because Catie told me last time she was mad at me that Tara said 'Maybe I should just shut Alex out of my life, like I did Nick' and Catie said 'No, you can't do that, she's your best friend...' I hate this. I wish everything could be better. She hasn't even tried talking to me...but yea....I haven't tried talking to her either. Why didn't I just tie her fucking shoe? I'm listening to Rolling Balls by AFI, and it makes me really happy, because the song is hilarious, but then I think of Tara, and how much she H A T E S AFI and it makes me sad, just because what if she now hates me as much as that? And here I am, like almost every day wearing the hoodie she gave me... Its like she walks right past me without even looking at me now. She must be really pissed. Eh..I'm gonna go...bye.
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im really really really really sorry. i shouldnt of said not too, i didnt think she would be mad..
[Anonymous]
yeah, I do that all the time. someone will demean me, or say something [like a teacher will give me a bad grade] and Ill get REALLY pissed off and stuff, even if I didnt try. then I feel stupid.

I hope tara forgievs you and you both are friends again, it makes me sad to think you arent.
[Anonymous]