I feel like a nothing...again. Mainly because I have no idea what's going on. I wish I did. But I don't. I feel so stupid, I am stupid, even he said I was stupid. Ugh...god. I have no idea what to believe. I'm so scared. I promised I wouldn't...but...it's so hard, I'm not going to though. Even if nothing seems the way it is. Fuck. Just fuck. Fuck everything. I hate this. Why am I like this? I dont' know.
I just woke up...and I think it would have been better if I just stayed asleep...Just seeing that and...yea. I'm so weird. I'm going to lose him because I'm a fucking retard and can't even talk to him about the stuff he wants to talk about. And then their is her who is so perfect, and I bet she can talk to him about anything. Why can't I be like that?
God, everything is going wrong. My braces are starting to hurt again...and god. Why? Why? Can someone tell me why everything has to go wrong?
I'm so wrong.