I want you to be happy. I want you to feel right. I don't want you to be upset. I love you. I love you. I love you. I care about you so much. Please be happy...please. I love you Today has been boring. Along with yesturday. I might get my contact today. I'm so worried, I'm so worried about you. Please I love you. I don't know what I'm going to do. Hopefully Greg and I can hang out tomorrow. I can't stand not seeing him. I love you. I love you. I love you. I woke up late today...I didn't get up till like 12:00 which is sorta weird, maybe it's because I didn't get to sleep till 3:00 last night. I don't know...I was just laying in bed thinking about you all night. Wondering if I'll be able to see you Sunday or talk to you before Monday. I can't wait till Winter Break. I can't wait till Christmas. :D And it sounds like...armageddon Sounds like...armageddon Sounds like...cum and drink with me.... Cum and drink with me And I remember him fucking me, And I remember liking it, I didn't know any better... And I remember the smell, and the pain, and the shame... And I remember being afraid and thinking everyday, Every single day.. that it was my fault... Oh, but what happened to that little girl? Who used to dream of one day ruling the world, Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room---beneath the moon Destroying to create Softly praying to "God" What do I do now? What do I do now? As I secretely masturbate... But then I'd hear his hooves coming down the floor With a Bible in his hand... Softly opening my door and he'd say... DAUGHTER! The day of your attonement is due! Well there's 3 million sinners out there... and that includes you! No daddy, don't... no daddy, don't... LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE! NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE! NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE! SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME! I'm bleeding, it's not fair... You see, there's this little place I like to go... I like to run and hide--deep inside, Where all the nightmares are real, and all the monsters come alive, Oh, but the things I've seen in soft, soft visions and terrifying prophecies, Like serpents on the take and gods coming in all sizes and shapes Nothing seems fulfilling anymore.. Well your temples are swollen in deceit and the body of your missionary, He's rotting... rotting in defeat mama? MAMA! Are the aliens coming to take us away? (mama?) Is armageddon gonna happen again today? LOOK WHAT HE DID TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?! HOW COULD YOU DO IT TO ME! WHY DID YOU DO IT TO ME?! I will not cry... I will not cry... I--PREFER--TO--DIE! than live--this life--of LIES! KILL WHAT YOU CAN ---- CHALLENGE EVERYTHING Vengeance is mine... Hey, I'm sorry baby... please come back inside...we can laugh a little... and live and die, no wait. see, eye got this hot pot of jonestown tea And it's been brewing for you and me, Oh, it only takes one sip, Come one baby, Surrender your lips, I can take you someplace nice... I can take you...someplace NICE! Breed my disease, be my disease... Breed my disease, be my disease... and vengeance will be mine It's closer than u think... So I entered his room at 32 past noon With my little ritual knife... I cut out his tounge Liberated his wife She loved me for it other world woman, Well, thats what she called me (Destroyer), the one who sets you free, (cum and drink with me) We all die like cartoons, surrender your children, kids who like to kill, lies... Jonestown Tea I can't get that song out of my head it makes me sad...