I really hate dumb blondes....at work the one girl really irritates me. Ug its just blah... Well i got a few applications and i hope i get a position at Ace, the hours would be perfect for school and i would make more money. I can't wait to graduate... well for some parts. I have talked to pat, i proposed the idea of getting a apt after highschool for college. It seems like a good, i really want out of my house, i fight with my mom everyday, about stupid shit... i really get tired of it. I just want my independence, and from the sounds of it i'll be able to pull it off if everything goes well lol. Yeah i'm planning very ahead of time, but i need out! I wanna start living... my childhood hasn't been very enjoyable ... i can recall, and i just want to able to function on my own and do things i want for a change. One thing i plan to do in the next year is go to New Zealand, i will go there., and it will be sweet as hell. ahh yess my first real vaction away from it all. i can just imagine.....mmmmm... rolling green landscapes,the roar of the waves on the coast, mountains in the distance... No huge cities or annouying small town garbage. yes true freedom... thats what i want. I have dreamed of doing that for so long. I'm excited for the 23rd, i can't wait to see corpse bride. I hope everyone will go and see it. I know i am, so all you peeps who are going better get your seats down cause i only have a neon and 3 back seats. I really miss ashley... i dont think i've really missed someone this much before. Its a very long and unyeilding feeling at times. Like when you feel as if your missing your arm or leg...you just dont function good without it. I really wanted to see her this weekend, but i have to work all of it... sigh.i hope her weekend is going good.