OK so I'm sleeping on Monday and it's like 11:40 or something and in my dream i thought I heard a doorbell but then I woke up so i was like what the fuck did someone really ring my doorbell or did I imagine it and then a couple minutes later Hannah and Alisha came up to my room and i was pretty surprised.. so we just hung out listened to music and stuff then made food and just uhh had an interesting day haha.. So then after they left I Aaron and britt picked me up and we went and got Brendan.. Then we drove to Rotterdam or something and picked up 2 of brittnies friends then we got Milk and Oreos and sweet sunglasses from the dollor store.. Then we went to central park and ate some oreos and played some extreme frisbie.. it was a very nice day out.. but the frisbie kept going into this stream thing in the park so brittnie would have to walk in and grab it since she had sandals on... then we went to Rotterdam mall because suposedly NSC was suppose to be there but James had to work so they werent.. Then me, Aaaron, and Bren went back to Amsterdam and had taco bell then at like 9 we went to Albany because we wanted to play lazer tag but we got there at 10 and guess what on monday-Thursday they close at 10 so we couldnt play.. so we are probally goin back friday because they are open till 1am.. so went back to amsterdam and then i just stayed up for a little while then went to sleep.. Today I got up and felt like shit so I didn't go to practice but then I felt a bit better so I went over to Jons house to jam and stuff.. then i got home and just like slept.. and woke up over and over for like 4 hours and i started to feel like shit agian.. then I just went downstairs for a little while then I came back up here and went to sleep at like 9 and woke back up at 12 and i still feel like shit.. i feel weak, and i have a headache, and my throat hurts and i have a cold, and my muscles are sore.. feel like shit basically.. so probally going to go to sleep soon... You said you hate my suffering, and you understood, and you'd take care of me. You'd always be there.. well where are you now?