hey whats up not a whole lot here im way bored and im still confused and lost and stuck and bleh...i want to be with cristina because i love her to death and i just want to make things better for her but then i want to be with cambria because i miss her and i love her. so i guess..i really dont know. i am in my own room on MY computer that finally fucking works. o guess what else o fucking yay. i get to go to the doctors tomorrow at 10:00 and miss school i think probabley. my dad said i might have to go to the hospital. i might even just fuck that and go to the ER tonight because my arm fucking sucks ass right now. its soooo gay. omfg. i just found out that my dad hasnt told anyone in our family about my cancer. he hates to talk about it its so sad. he hasnt even told amparo. weird uh. i dont know my dad is weird about shit like that he hates to talk about all my illnesses because he cries. and ya. well. i am going to go now and sorry cambria i pissed you off so bad. but i love you. sometimes i have being lesbian or bi or whatever. lol its way worse than being straight. and i've noticed that more girls like me then guys. weird uh. i thought thats kinda funny in a way. well.....i dont know what to say but i am going to try and find pictures and shat to like make my diary interesting. ok bye bye leave comments....about you....my entry...anything. ok bye bye uh i am fucking around with this gay ass thingy and i dont know what to do with it so any fucking suggestions!!!! (im not pissed!)