hey fans...i have alot of random things to say. im at brookes house with jon luaren cristina myself brooke kayci megan and shea. im so sad and happy but im freakin out big tiome right now. my skitzo once again is like being retarded then my painicky thiny or wehatever is coming i think im going to have a panick attack or something because im shaking and its hard to breath. cristina is so fucking gorgous but all i want to do is be near her but i dont think she does. or feels the same way about me. she says she loves me and maybe she does but i dont know. she still has feelings for AT and im ok with that as long as she is happy. but i dunno. im soo hyper but im freakin out so im all quiet...ewwww the other day i had the fucking weirdest fucking dream in life. my dad got married to my friends sister who is 16 and i like freaked out and ya. well i could say sooo uch more but i wont. ok bye bye