ive decide im giving up alreadi...theres this boy that i am totally in love with but i am jus gunna give up becuz one he has a girlfreind hoo he says hes in love with (which i dont believe for a second) and two i have had no chance never will i and i never had one...plus hes older and thats an issue for him i guess but i dno i love him...sucks for me right..todais his birthday..i can never stop thinking about him and it drives me nutz! any advice would be amazing right now! give up? hang in there? i dno well yea...rachie nd lantypants are fighting again nd i think this is the end nd it makes me sad cuz i realli thought this was the one for her the way she raved about him and everything! even ask my freidns not even i can stop talkin about him!! haha well hes cool but being a total ass nd not callin her back nd jus ahh i hate guys i realli do!! why do u hav to be so complex??! then stans all like u dont love me but i do and he jus doesnt understand that im not even allowed to talk to him and i break that rule isnt that enuf? i hate disobeying my mom cuz it hurts her and that hurts me.. me gordy nd kat are okay now but julia..i jus dont want to be freinds with her cuz she lies soooooo friken much and its jus stupid stuff she lies about plus she always talks about everyone then sucks up to them!! i don get it!! then she always has this attitude and this look on her face thats jus like "im too good for you!" ahh!! why do people suck? plus i dno its jus gay...but ahh well yea..i went to the doctor today nd they made me pee in a cup! i hate it! ahh its retarded! nd also they gave me a blood test nd a tb shot..i hate blood tests but the tb shots are fun cuz they make a bubble nd i like bubbles...haha dont maek fun of me im bored ok! ...im gunna work on my tummy still its got to flatten out beatch!! ummm lets see havent talked to daddy for a bit but ill prolly see him at the graduation party tomorrw :( but i get to see kashy!! wo0t!!! i love her i havent seen her in like 9 months!! wo0t!! haha well yea its 6:45 the weathers getting wrose by the hour ahha wel its raingin which sucks! i gotta get outta this house!! ahh...give me advice people please...im afraid its all i have... J*me