ok im sry to all my friends ok i just need to write a few things down! dont read it then if you dont want to! watever fuck it i dont care what you say about it bcuz thats just me, sry if that hurts you but i guess then i always have.... anyways my re ocurring nightmare came back again last night...where this gang comes and shoots every single person in sight nd you cant get away no matter where you go...but this time..i had a friend...i had sam, she was so brave and fearless..and so smart and she realli helped me..she protected me and it was fun...she wasnt afraid of the gang, she even let one guy in her house and then beat his ass...i ahd a lot of bullet marks in me but yea thats the good thing about nightmares they cant hurt you... also in another dream last night, we were at school and outside playing a game...nd i fell down running and i shouted "hey wait for me!" but no one came back except for kat...she said..jamie are you ok? nd im like..yea...thank you for staying with me...no ne else was nice enuff...nd shes like "thats my job! we're best friends!" (mind you we were little in this dream like 6 or 7 like the good ol days) then in a nother dream (i hav a lot ok) i was standing outside a lone and then gordon comes up to me and says "wanna walk home together?" and i said ok! and we walked this realllllli funny walk..hah it was alot of fun.. nd in the last dream i can remember.. i went to another something corporate concert with sam jen julia and lexi...nd while we were there..hollanders band had made it big and they came up to me and said "hey do u still wanna try out for our band?" nd so i did..except my throat was hurting and it kept on making these duck noises..but only i oculd hear them..but then i woke up so i dno if i made it.. but i geuss my dreams made me realize i was wrong about my friends...i guess sometimes they jus arent there bcuz of unknown reasons but when they are...its realli fun... i dno i hope no one is still mad at me...that would be a waste of summer.. nd for the record...i wasnt mad at you all in the beginning i was jus sayin how i felt at that rather lonely time...im sorry..