all day i get yelled at by my mom...i dont get to go anywhere bcuz of my stupid sisters mistakes...i cant go to the friken beach cuz my mom thinks i am lieing nd goin to sum rave or somthing....i cant go to the place everyone round here goes cuz she says its not safe...she better friken lay off or i dno wat im gunna do..why does she hav to do this??? i was passin by this place near my house on my way home nd i saw that guy...he waved...gosh my friken heart was doing flip flops...im a hopeless wreck arent i?? wrote something today...took me 5 seconds.. im lieing here, readi to die, take me down, make me cry, nothing can stop me, i am gone for good, you didnt even take me in when no one else would, i cant take this pain, i cant take this hurt, you lingered in the shadows, where the darkness had always lurked.... not in a good mood today...wtf is wrong wit me? i do everything for my family. i work hard at school to please htem..i work hard around the house! i even got a friken job so i can help out! nd all i get is punishments and suffering and teasing...tahts all they ever do...im never gunna get out of this am i? no im not... geuss i ll have to find my own way...??? (untrusted.teased.angry)