jus got back from the lake...it sucked ballz i sat in my bed the whole entire time..talked on the fone...texted ppl...ate...watched tv..learned some guitar...thats it... funfilled i kno! i hateit...rachel always told me 'your family will always be ur best friends' she lied...tehy all hate me...not cool... i want to move away. or at least go to another schooll....i need new people that are like me..ive never realli been myself around ppl here..i barely even kno how to be myself anymore..all i kno is that this isnt me..i wanna be around ppl that are like me and accept me..i dno its wierd i geuss.... i cant stop thinkin about this one person...it drives me nutz i jus need someone to be there for me someone to care...ppl say that they care but its not enuf they need to show me..'empty words are not enuf' ... maybe im jus not good enuf... i need a way to deal with all this stupid pain cuz i cant take it anymore... im not who i once was..i never will be again.. i geuss its hard for me to trust ppl with my familys past expierences... goodbye