insomnia

Listening to: cursive
Feeling: mellow
"When Summer's Over Will We Dream Of Spring" A safe position -- a back against the wall A simple shrug to shrug the questions off When there's no action, there's no reaction Curb the dead, avert the consequence So if no one moves, and no one speaks a word We could act OK (We must standstill -- we must honor the stalemate) And we must slumber... have we ever been awake? Have we done a thing? When summer's over will we dream of spring? Safety can be disabling A crippled history as an absentee A safe position -- turn off the phone Hang the blankets over the windows 'Cause if no one's home, then there's no one responsible There's no response for disappointed eyes To see through you -- well, they can't see you anymore (We must standstill -- we must honor the stalemate) Until we're pawned off... have we ever been present? Are we too past tense? When summer's over will we face autumn? Safety is disabling A crippled history Crippled history A crippled history... Absentee... absentee... You're safe with me Curb the deed, avert the season Absentee... absentee... You're safe with me When summer's over will you dream of your crippled history Crippled history Crippled history Crippled history Absentee... When summer's over will you dream of your crippled history Crippled history Crippled history Crippled history Absentee... This is a good song.yep... this one was a flood of memories. "After The Movies" After the movies In the parking lot We stared so long And you kissed me With ripe young breath So I kissed you One night as forever In the movies Well, they never had it so good One moment So infinite On soft wet lips And I miss you Are you glad I'm finally gone? I'm so sorry to hear that I'm so sorry I'm so sorry Have I hurt you? I have hurt myself These sad songs won't change anything Love as fragile as a wineglass It should have been forever Love as fragile as a wineglass It couldn't last forever I'm so sorry It couldn't last forever I remember how we kissed One night as forever veronica came out to the park yonight.ti wasn't as fun as i hoped.she seems so distant.i can understand why she would be though.wow.summers almost over.whew.i acomplished alot!i completeley changed my life!i even fucked it up real bad to top it all off.i want to say fuck everybody and become a hermit or something.start over new.knowing i've never hurt anybody.maybe then i won't feel so much hurt.nah,i'd miss these people.and veronica.too much.i'd trip on a stick and poke my eye out or something.knowing my streak of fuck-ups. man ineed to get sleep but i can't stop thinking about her.i miss her.she just left too.i'm hopeless.i'll be stuck on her forever. it's pathetic. no it's love. oh well, say (add french word here) i hope we can have another chance.that's what i'd really want.one day.if you'd even want that.one day.to be able to look into your eyes and have that connecting feeling that rushes over your body and makes you want to xplode in emotion.i don't know.sry for being this way.really.well i guess i'm going too sleep.maybe.i wonder if my mom is coming home.it's cold here.lonley.
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i had a good time.
i liked hanging out with you guys.

i had a good time today.
real good time.

sorry for the distance.
im distant from myself lately.

the french word i inserted was
Shawn John Pavalone.
or...
David Pantamkin.
or.. Cresten Patsquwa De-Von.

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haha.
well.
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in all honesty i feel like im missing you right now.
its of course four in the morning.
but i do.

oh yes.

i love you.

i do.
I blew it
And if I knew what to do, then I'd do it
But the point that I have, I'll get to it
And forever for her is over for me
Forever, just the word that she said that means never
To be with another together
And with the weight of a feather it tore into me
Then I knew it
All the work that it took to get through it
On the wings of a feather that flew it
Fell onto my shoe it cut up into me

So let's do it, just get on a plane and just do it
Like the birds and the bees and get to it
Just get out of town and forever be free
Forever, I wonder we could stay together
It could change if you want for the better
Just turn down my shirt and lay down next to me