i think of my child hood as a terrible thing to think of becuz of all the pain those people brought me to my life style now! i have these terrible thoughts of what i did to myself back then, sliting my writs,trying to commit suicide so many times but failed to complete my dream:( :@cheat death:@ i have no family,left lonely,fucked up,screwed up,don't know what to do in life, i've think its time for me to really comit this dream that i want to come true:( i disslike everything about me and my life! and i cry every fricken day of my life thinking about this!