i apoilgize to my friends that i have kept waiting for me to reply to them. i wanna espcialy so sorry to ariel i haven't forgotten about you but just right over here right now its a bitch to be alive right now :( i would enevr in life would forget you and i hope that is the same for you but if it isn't then i guess i'll have to struggle with that(K) the reason why i haven't been on this diary is becuz i got into a accident at school with drinking and going to school after so they caught me and suspended me for a bit and made me to community service.and then i've been grounded from moslty everything at home. tv, computer, guitar, phone and more to say. i've been praying and trying my hardest to change myself and to control my body from harm. but sum days it slips and it hurts to wake up the next morning to not remenber a thing of what i did last night to put myself to sleep. but it hurts to sleep now with lots and tons of scars on me. just really i've changed and i don't like it. feels like i'm really gunna die! i hope you reply to this (K)ariel(F) +dame+