Yesteray morning around 4:30 Vanessa texted me again. I had already been awake for a few minutes so I was able to read it. Apparently she was lonely and stuff. We wrote each other for a lil bit before I passed out again. Jen called at about 11 or so and woke me up. I thought it was like 8 or somethin. I told her about what happened the other night and she said she was disapointed in me. She said it was sad that I was the one that got drunk and she stayed sober. It's always the other way around. I didn't want her getting drunk and i'm glad she didn't cuz Neva was with her that night. Vanessa was being a bit forward than she usually is and it made me wonder. I asked her if she or some one else were trying to mess with me but she said no, it was just her and that everything she was saying was the truth. That kinda freaked me a little cuz this girl is practicaly in love with me. Later yesterday she told me that again she wasn't messing with me head cuz I told her that it was hard for me to believe that some one else like me the way she does. She said that she likes the way she feels when she's with me and that when she's with me it feels like it's just her and me and no one else is around. Whoa. Dude I don't know how she started feeling like that, i've just been friends with her and stuff and i've been careful not to lead her on. I have unwillingly and unknowingly worked my charms on her. So Jen was still kinda mad at me cuz I gave Vanessa my numbers. I thought her and her sister were over reacting. It's no big deal, all we are is just friends if if Vanessa wants more, I don't. I only want my Jen. She also told me that these past two and a half weeks i've changed. She didn't really tell me how though. I don't think i've changed. eh whatever. Jen said that we're gonna have a serious talk on saturday, I didn't like the sound of that. I was afraid that she'd want to take a break or something. I told her she couldn't cuz the third would have been exactly one year that I realized I wanted to be wither her. It's also the day she told me she was facsinated by me hehe. Damn, yesterday I was so incredibly tired and out of it. Danielle and I were supposed to go to Sarah's house but when Danielles mom go home she said she couldn't go. damn, oh well. I talked to Jen one last time and she was much nicer to me lol. She had me tell her a story again and I couldn't really finish it cuz I didn't know what I was going to do with the characters. ehh