Earlier today I talked to Jen, it went by ok I guess. I asked for my hoody back, that's the only thing of mine I want, I want her to keep everything else. I didn't realize how much I miss her and still love her, it's crazy, but it's only been a week so it's not surprising that I feel this way. I asked her what this whole break thing means and she told me to do what makes me happy, damn it, I don't know if I can be happy without her. I've never been so happy as I am with her but i've never been so angry and depressed either. She said that she's a bad person but she's not, she can be so awesome when she wants to be, it's just that she's iresponsible. I dunno, I'm gonna give it a few weeks and see how I feel and if I feel the same way I do now, than I'm gonna ask if she wants to give it another try. Me and Larson have a good thing going on but at the moment I don't really see us as a couple, I love just being able to talk and hang out with him. He's fine with the fact that he has a 10% chance, he said he'd still try even if it was 1%. I dunno, we'll see how that goes too. So the show last night went by really good, Light This City and Dead Elizabeth were great, just awesome. I got some more bruises from the pit though lol but that's ok. I just didn't like how my mom was hassling me about them. OMG, I just about died when I saw this one girl, she was just sooooo incredibly beautiful, I was gonna go up and talk to her and stuff but than I saw her holding hands with one of the guitarists from With Passion and I was like fuck, that's not cool. Now I know why she had that pick around her neck. I met Davina's friend Kiara yesterday, I knew it was her when I saw her in the pit. She pretty cool, she was the only girl who stage dived. So Davina is really into this one dude Eric aka Salsa and I don't know why, but it bugs the hell out of me. Well maybe it has to do with the fact that i'm into her and I like her and stuff. Sometimes i'm like what is she thinking with Eric or Ryan, I could take such good care of her, I think I could make her happy if I had the chance, but I know that's not gonna happen so I try not to think about it. I know she isn't interested. Sometimes she'd be talking about them and i'd be thinking dude you're killing me here. ehhh whatever makes her happy, all I know is that if one of them hurts her, they're gonna have a missing "part" the next morning. Anyways, enough about her. I was supposed to go out with Danielle and all them tonight to the Selma party but since my parents won't let me spend the night, I'm gonna go out with my good friend Nicole. She's really cool, I really like being around her. Tonight we're going out to a party in fresno so that should be awesome. But yea, I gotta go for now, I need to write more later.