Dear Devon. Well, its fair to say, i made the mistake this weekend, but I'd like you to know...from this point on that I will never drink again. I get a little too emotional, stupid and just over the top phsyco bitch. heh. actually i kinda turn into a complete emo retard fuck up. gross. haha. I dunno, i think i kinda get it now... and now that its out there, i think i can give it up, and hopefully if your still okay with it, be friends. I think it just got to me, all the flirting, and how happy you seemed to be when we were together, i dunno. I just wanted it to be real...and it was, just not in the way i wanted it to be i guess. I can honestly say, if i had known earlier shannon was going i probably wouldn't have gone, because i knew i'd do this, haha, thats why i asked in the first place... but the honest to god truth? I DO love you...and i probably always will, but unlike when i'm drinking...when im sober I can contain myself. haha. I get it if you...or even if Shannon doesn't want you to talk to me anymore...i kinda made a total and complete idiot of myself *sigh* again. but i really would love to be friends... because when I'm in a right state of mind i do enjoy just hanging around with you. haha, but either way... hello i love you. and i refuse to regret you. so lets just take the hits as they come :) Never knew I could feel like this It's like I've never seen the sky before Want to vanish inside your kiss Every day I'm loving you more and more Listen to my heart can you hear it sing? Come back to me and FORGIVE everything! Seasons may change winter to spring and I will Love You, until the end of time. goodbye baby hey there kiddo. :)