seems like all the girls are ugly and all the guys are blind. what is sex to them? i feel so virgin. afraid of his hands on me, and i want it more than anything. want it the way i want to see god. it's all so different now. not lust, but... religion. there are only a few truly beautiful people. unfortunately i am not one of them. but if i throw up my food enough, and do my makeup just right... maybe. maybe.