a cry for help...........

Feeling: broken
Sabdil0602 [3:26 AM]: :-! Auto response from Srifera [3:26 AM]: i hate you! I Hate You!! I HATE YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sabdil0602 [3:26 AM]: yeah well i fucking hate you to ! Srifera [3:27 AM]: lol..... why so much anger? Srifera [3:27 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [3:27 AM]: no why you have so much anger? Sabdil0602 [3:27 AM]: ;-) Srifera [3:28 AM]: alex.... who else pisses me off...... Srifera [3:28 AM]: :-X Srifera [3:28 AM]: but whatevers...... what can i do but bitch about it Sabdil0602 [3:29 AM]: what he do now ? Srifera [3:29 AM]: he said he was coming through and look at the time.......... i hate being told something and then having to wait and mad hours later, im still waiting Sabdil0602 [3:30 AM]: lol loser Sabdil0602 [3:30 AM]: like the new SN ? Srifera [3:30 AM]: i like the lil pic on the side:-D Srifera [3:31 AM]: is that saying u two faced? Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol yeah im a gemini Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol Srifera [3:31 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: nah i have two sides Srifera [3:31 AM]: the angry side and the boyband side Srifera [3:31 AM]: i know Srifera [3:31 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: lol Srifera [3:31 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [3:31 AM]: you got jokes Srifera [3:32 AM]: its fun messing with ppl........ especially u, cause its so easy Srifera [3:32 AM]: lol Srifera [3:32 AM]: :-X Sabdil0602 [3:33 AM]: so whats good Srifera [3:35 AM]: nothing, i was suppose to write a paper for psychology due tomorrow, but never got around to it...... theres still hope though Srifera [3:35 AM]: i got hope Srifera [3:35 AM]: i still got some hours till tomorrow Sabdil0602 [3:36 AM]: so start the shit already Srifera [3:36 AM]: im not in the mood....... Srifera [3:37 AM]: have u ever just not been in the mood? Srifera [3:38 AM]: im like that alot....... Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: what kinda mood? Sabdil0602 [3:38 AM]: you talking about ? Srifera [3:39 AM]: im not in the mood to do anything....... i have an online diary where i write and ppl read and tell me stuff and thats all im in the mood for right now........ thats what im doing now...... just reading other ppl's diaries and writing them comments Sabdil0602 [3:40 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:40 AM]: word where i wanna read some of your shit? Srifera [3:41 AM]: let me get the link.....hold on Sabdil0602 [3:41 AM]: k Srifera [3:42 AM]: my diary...... Srifera [3:42 AM]: click the link Sabdil0602 [3:42 AM]: k Sabdil0602 [3:46 AM]: damn everyone who wrote in there have many issues just like you Sabdil0602 [3:46 AM]: lol Srifera [3:46 AM]: :-Pthats why im addicted to the site Srifera [3:47 AM]: im just another "clone" in this world...... no ones an individual.......... we are all the same person Sabdil0602 [3:47 AM]: lol Srifera [3:50 AM]: u should start a diary too....... then i could write u comments about how much of a "guy" u are..... sounds like fun Srifera [3:50 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: no thanks Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: i like keeping many thing i feel inside Sabdil0602 [3:50 AM]: i have to much shit to write about Srifera [3:51 AM]: i have enough to keep inside and write and talk about...... Srifera [3:51 AM]: ...... Srifera [3:51 AM]: bad business Sabdil0602 [3:51 AM]: >:o Srifera [3:51 AM]: i think im bipolar............. Sabdil0602 [3:51 AM]: :- Srifera [3:52 AM]: my dad is taking medication for it........ i think i inherited his mental disorders Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: =-O Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: :-D Sabdil0602 [3:53 AM]: loser Srifera [3:53 AM]: never that Srifera [3:53 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [3:56 AM]: anyhow im fucking bored as hell Srifera [3:56 AM]: me too Srifera [3:56 AM]: i registered for classes though Srifera [3:56 AM]: :-D Sabdil0602 [3:56 AM]: thats cool Srifera [3:57 AM]: the bad thing is i took a summer course and its 3 hours a day, 4 days a week Srifera [3:57 AM]: thats alot Sabdil0602 [3:57 AM]: look whos online Sabdil0602 [3:57 AM]: lol Srifera [3:57 AM]: what a butthead Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: why so mean Srifera [3:59 AM]: why not? Srifera [3:59 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [3:59 AM]: um what ever Sabdil0602 [4:00 AM]: lol Srifera [4:01 AM]: dont tell him im pissed!!! Srifera [4:01 AM]: butthead Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: opppsssss Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: shit to late Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: :-X Srifera [4:01 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: live with it Srifera [4:01 AM]: lol....... i know, he told me Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: just fight each other Sabdil0602 [4:01 AM]: lol Srifera [4:03 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [4:03 AM]: so what else is up Srifera [4:03 AM]: lol...... nothing, just talking Sabdil0602 [4:06 AM]: blah blah blah Srifera [4:07 AM]: :-P Srifera [4:09 AM]: so........yeah Sabdil0602 [4:09 AM]: what you wanna talk about ? Srifera [4:09 AM]: i dont know.......... what else is there to talk about? Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: life Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: you people Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: hate anger god Sabdil0602 [4:10 AM]: lol Srifera [4:10 AM]: :-P Srifera [4:11 AM]: im just pissed......... i dont need a reason....... i always get one though......... life sucks......... god is nonexistant or he just doesn't care......... and i want to disappear for years and come back a new person Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: lol Srifera [4:12 AM]: maybe i should just act more crazy then i am....... say im going to kill myself........ and be commited in a psych ward Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: nah don't do that Srifera [4:12 AM]: then i'll get normalized........ and come out new Sabdil0602 [4:12 AM]: nah Srifera [4:12 AM]: why? Srifera [4:13 AM]: i have a couple years to waste Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: cuz we will all miss you Srifera [4:13 AM]: riiigghhtt........ Srifera [4:13 AM]: come visit once a week Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: nah for real we will Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [4:13 AM]: to much work Srifera [4:13 AM]: lol Srifera [4:14 AM]: when u miss someone, it makes ya closer when they return Srifera [4:14 AM]: it'll be cool Srifera [4:15 AM]: i was going to do that the other day......... Srifera [4:15 AM]: 2 days ago Srifera [4:15 AM]: it was 3am going on 4 Srifera [4:15 AM]: i was going to walk to jacobi's psych ward and commit myself Srifera [4:15 AM]: but i didn't have the ballls Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: lol Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: damn Srifera [4:17 AM]: i dont think its healthy to be so angry........ Sabdil0602 [4:17 AM]: itsnot Srifera [4:18 AM]: so wouldn't it be better for me? Sabdil0602 [4:18 AM]: thats why at times i dont care anymore Srifera [4:18 AM]: i tried that........ i say i dont, but i know i do....... lying to other ppl is easy, but u could never really lir to urself Srifera [4:18 AM]: it doesn't work Sabdil0602 [4:19 AM]: nah i dont lie Srifera [4:20 AM]: i mean when i try it Sabdil0602 [4:21 AM]: brb Srifera [4:21 AM]: ok Sabdil0602 [4:23 AM]: back Srifera [4:23 AM]: yay Srifera [4:23 AM]: woo hoo Srifera [4:23 AM]: *dances around room* Srifera [4:23 AM]: ::shake it dont break it:: Sabdil0602 [4:24 AM]: loser Srifera [4:25 AM]: :-P Srifera [4:25 AM]: u know u like it Sabdil0602 [4:25 AM]: nope Srifera [4:26 AM]: fine....... i will never dance out of happiness for u again today Srifera [4:26 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [4:26 AM]: okay but tomorrow you will? Srifera [4:27 AM]: depending on if u desearve it or not Sabdil0602 [4:28 AM]: um ...... Sabdil0602 [4:28 AM]: okay i guess Srifera [4:29 AM]: i see happiness in that "i guess" Srifera [4:29 AM]: :-P Sabdil0602 [4:29 AM]: brb Srifera [4:29 AM]: ok Sabdil0602 signed off at 4:36 AM Sabdil0602 [4:35 AM]: back Auto response from Srifera [4:35 AM]: call me if i dont answer back... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Lyrical nazi [3:57 AM]: baby Srifera [3:57 AM]: yes? Lyrical nazi [3:57 AM]: i fell asleep Srifera [3:58 AM]: it happens Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: no not like his Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: opps, this Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: i fell asleep in the shower Srifera [3:58 AM]: thats not good Lyrical nazi [3:58 AM]: i did like you said and layed in the tub full of hot water.. and i fell asleep Srifera [3:59 AM]: u could have drowned!!!!!! Srifera [3:59 AM]: >:o Srifera [3:59 AM]: good u mad tall Lyrical nazi [3:59 AM]: nah, i have a tub pillow that my father uses. it holds your neck in place Srifera [4:00 AM]: wow....... sounds like a pleasant experience Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: i only woke up because my pops kept knockin Srifera [4:00 AM]: did u have a dream? Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: sab says your pissed Lyrical nazi [4:00 AM]: :-( Srifera [4:01 AM]: sab has a big mouth Lyrical nazi [4:01 AM]: Srifera [3:29 AM]: he said he was coming through and look at the time.......... i hate being told something and then having to wait and mad hours later, im still waiting Srifera [4:02 AM]: wow Srifera [4:02 AM]: he really has a big mouth Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: baby, i know you hate when i fuck up on meeting with you Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: i don't do it on purpose Lyrical nazi [4:02 AM]: for real Srifera [4:03 AM]: shit always happens though...... i guess thats life Lyrical nazi [4:03 AM]: i won't say i'm sorry.. cause it won't make up for my fuck up Lyrical nazi [4:03 AM]: but i swear i won't mess up friday Srifera [4:04 AM]: its for 5pm......... i made the appointment Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: awesome... hey, would you like to go to the movies with me and sab Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: sunday Srifera [4:05 AM]: sounds good Srifera [4:05 AM]: what we watching? Lyrical nazi [4:05 AM]: van helsing Srifera [4:05 AM]: never heard of it Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: the guy who fights dracula and frankenstien Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: the wolf man Srifera [4:06 AM]: ohh...... ok Srifera [4:06 AM]: i saw 10.5 Srifera [4:06 AM]: :-D Srifera [4:06 AM]: it was good Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: wow Srifera [4:06 AM]: the ending could have been better though Lyrical nazi [4:06 AM]: it's a cool flick Srifera [4:07 AM]: but i liked it Lyrical nazi [4:07 AM]: it was a mini series Lyrical nazi [4:07 AM]: it had 6 parts Srifera [4:07 AM]: well, i saw the last part Lyrical nazi [4:08 AM]: baby, i'm about to log off to get some more sleep. i just came on to say i'm sorry for being soo tired Srifera [4:08 AM]: ok Srifera [4:08 AM]: byes!!!! Srifera [4:08 AM]: *waves* Lyrical nazi [4:15 AM]: wait Srifera [4:16 AM]: im not going nowhere Srifera [4:16 AM]: u were leaving........ remember Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i know Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i need the potty Srifera [4:16 AM]: huh? Srifera [4:16 AM]: i dont have it Srifera [4:16 AM]: :-P Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: i gotta pee Lyrical nazi [4:16 AM]: brb Srifera [4:17 AM]: ok Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: my ex, tried to get back together with me Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: earlier yesterday Lyrical nazi [4:21 AM]: i have no feelings good or bad for her Lyrical nazi [4:22 AM]: in the pic, she's the one next to me in the gray sweater Lyrical nazi [4:22 AM]: i showed her your pic and told her i'm taken Srifera [4:22 AM]: :-) Srifera [4:22 AM]: sounds good Lyrical nazi [4:23 AM]: she got soo pissed that i'm over her Lyrical nazi [4:23 AM]: i was head over heels when i first met her.. but she's ugly inside. deep in her heart she's a awful person Srifera [4:24 AM]: thats no good Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: i hate her Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: she hurt me bad Srifera [4:24 AM]: im sorry if i ever do that........ Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: nahh Lyrical nazi [4:24 AM]: you're special Srifera [4:25 AM]: i dont want u to ever hate me though Srifera [4:25 AM]: nomatter what Srifera [4:25 AM]: u promise? Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: i won't hate you, because your not ugly inside Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: you're pure Lyrical nazi [4:25 AM]: your heart is always in the right place Srifera [4:26 AM]: even when i want to beat someone to death for sitting in my seat in class? Lyrical nazi [4:26 AM]: hey, do it Lyrical nazi [4:27 AM]: you're still good to me Srifera [4:27 AM]: then i'll go to jail...... how long will u wait for me? Lyrical nazi [4:27 AM]: unlike your 10 years, i'll wait forever Srifera [4:28 AM]: :'(u making me tear up Lyrical nazi [4:28 AM]: i'll meet someone new if it's longer then 20, but once you come out, i belong to you Srifera [4:29 AM]: love fades........ u might stop loving me and love her........... or i might change into a different person Srifera [4:30 AM]: baby......... im in one of my "moods"...... sorry for all the negativity Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: listen, you're right. love does fade, but love is in the mind.. my heart will always be with you, even if we aint together Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: it's not negative Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: we all get those moods Lyrical nazi [4:30 AM]: :-D Lyrical nazi [4:31 AM]: i love you, no matter what mood you in Srifera [4:32 AM]: i think im bipolar........ i learned about it in school and my dad is taking medication for it and i think i inhereted it..........so im gonna be in those moods alot........ Lyrical nazi signed off at 4:32 AM ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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hey,
i think your journal set up and the whole journal is cool.
im kate
(exploited)
ok ciao
hey. you commented on my journal! you can add me if you want <3
[Anonymous]
LOL I agree, humans ruin everything :P
[sie]
Interesting coversations. You must have AIM ... I don't talk to anyone on AIM anymore :'( but that's ok, I have like 2 friends.

People mess with me a lot too and it sucks, I hate it.
[Anonymous]
whoa. i would totally read that but that is too long. yes. reading is a life skill.

.mae.
[Anonymous]
Woah, that's kinda weird. Sorry, I was reading your journal. But it totally reminded me of many many many conversations I've had with my people too. That's kinda weird. Yeah, if you ever wanna talk or anything I've got AIM too...sryoutofbounds. That's my screen name, so yeah...I dunno. Just thought your journal was cool. ~Adrianna
[Anonymous]
i tried that diet too. too hard and too depressing. and i hate it controlling my life. thanks for the comment tho. - smalls
[Anonymous]
you prolly have been tricked into going to mass.....by the government....or the little people who sit in the rabbit hole...around mushrooms for tables....listenin to all ur secrests....and soon theyll take you to the bermuda triangle....where youlll be poked and prodded for the rest of your miserable lives
[Anonymous]
oh yeah about that FIGHT BITCH thing...there's nothing to be scared about..i'm like..5 foot..and i weight well...like almost nothing..it was a joke..i'm so puny and short that i say shit like that, and people let me win.
[Anonymous]
i would lock my door but I dont have a lock and if I bolted it....they would probably break down just because they are relentless...thank you mucho for commenting
[Anonymous]
Thanks for the comment.

People are stupid. Too stupid.

*Jenna
[Anonymous]
thank you for ur comment. come by any time. you're so right about everyhting u said. thank you.
[Anonymous]