I'm so fucking pathetic! I don’t know why I always let love take over my life!!! It’s like I can’t do anything unless I have a man loving me. That’s just crap!!! I’m controlled by this emotion and it’s basically taking over everything I am. Why do I have to be such a girl? All day I’ve just been listening to the same song over and over again in a loop. It’s the song my ex dedicated to me. I should be over him by now!!! What the hell is wrong with my heart? Can’t it just move on… no matter who I’m with, I just think of this one guy. I’m really too old to be feeling like this again. I keep trying to occupy my thoughts with other things, just try and believe I’m ok, but I’m not. I’m the complete opposite of being ok. I feel like I’m utterly alone. Every time I think a guy's “THE ONE”, something happens to ruin it all. I’m starting to think I’m meant to be alone, but I can’t accept that!!! I don’t want to be alone!!! That’s why when I’m single I always mess with my close friends. They don’t love me, but they PRETEND so well. During the times I’m with them, it’s like we the only ones in this world. They make me feel wanted even if it’s only for a short time. At least someone wants me!!! It is so easy for me to PRETEND they're with me out of love. I just close my eyes and believe they want me, love me, need me.... If I can’t have the real thing, at least I can PRETEND… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Song my EX dedicated to me b4 he stopped loving me... DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE: I love you I love you I love you Baby I love you You are my life My happiest moments Weren't complete If you weren't by my side You're my relation And connection to the sun With you next to me There's no darkness I can't overcome You are my raindrops High in the sea You and God Whose beside sunlight Go so beatifully Baby I'm so proud Proud to be your girl You make the confusion Go all the way From this Cold and mixed world I am in love with you (In love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me 'Cause I am in love With you (in love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me The way I love you loving me And I know you love me Love me for who I am 'Cause years before I became who I am Baby I knew you Were the man No, it ain't easy Easy loving me I appreciate the Love and dedication From you to me Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child See myself being your wife And I see my whole Future in your eyes Lord of all my love for you Sometimes makes me wanna cry Realise all my blessings I'm grateful to have You by my side I am in love with you (In love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me 'Cause I am in love with you (In love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me Everytime I see your face My heart smiles Everytime it feels so good It hurts sometimes Created in this world To love, to hold, To feel, to breathe To lift you up Dangerously in love I am in love with you (In love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me (I love you, I love you) 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me 'Cause (I am in love with you) I am in love with you (In love) You set me free I can't do this thing called life Without you here with me (I can not do anything) 'Cause I'm dangerously In love with you (In love) I'll never leave Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me Dangerously Dangerously Dangerous Dangerouly in love with you Dangerously Oh I love you Love you Love you Love Love you I love you I love you Oh yeah I love you I love you Dangerously in love I love love love you I love love you Love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you Dangerously Dangerously in love I will survive the past I will survive the fear And I will survive ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ OUR FIRST PIC TOGETHER: ~a new beginning~ OUR LAST PIC TOGETHER: ~a new ending~