so im currently sitting here in front of the computer...like every day...in pants and a bra...my still wet hair dripping down my back. man im bored. why do i torture myself like this everyday? i mean my friends invite me to do stuff and i just ditch them. im a lousy friend. i also feel like...second pryority to james...i mean...its not like i want all of his attention...i mean i dont want him to always be like...worrying about me or shit like that...i just...feel like...hes kinda forgetting me. i kinda feel left out...like he doesnt care anymore...i mean. yah i still love him...so so much...but..i dont know. its not like im going to break up with him...and its not like i want him to call me every 5 seconds...but i feel like im obsessing for no reason. i feel like im acting like heather...its horriable