this is so shitty. i hate it. so my ex boyfriend and my lesbian best friend hooked up...yah and they tried to hide it from me the fuckers..god i hate them right now. i cant even fucking think. "i dont want this to be a perminate thing..." what a fucking liar. but anyways... i wanna hook up with clayton...only i dont think he wants to hook up with me. so theres something else adding to my depression...oh joy. god why does everything have to go wrong?? why cant i just be fucking pretty enough for people to like me??? i cant even keep a fucking boyfriend who iw as engaged too...im a whore... god i hate myself i should fucking die