...i hate this i wish that i were better. i wish i wasent ugly i wish people really knew who i was... the inner most thoughts of me...my dreams...my fears...my hopes...my loves....my everything but no one does. they see the poison on the outside and dont want anything to do with me. i wish that people could say im pretty or im funny or im something that they acutally want. but i cant neither can they. people say they understand...they dont. im going through this alone and no one can help me. im going to be alone for the rest of my life....no one could stand me for that long. they would commit suside. better me then them though. then no one else would. everything would be perfect.