i am on an island. a little island. 128 miles away from a class 3 hurricane. im going to die. this sucks ass. i want to be able to tell clayton...that i love him...i do. i really do. i want to tell him that i want to be with him. i want to tell him hes my everything and hes absoulty perfect. hes handsom and amazing and just completely perfect. but im going to die. he wont know how i feel. if i live...im going to tell him. im going to spill my guts to him...i hope he wont reject me. i thik i would kill myself if he did. not physically just mentally. hes what keeps me alive everyday. and i think he loves me back. shit shouldnt get my hopes up